Not Happy

I dont know what to do with myself I am so unhappy.I want to be loved and held so bad it hurts to think about it. I mean I love sex but I really love to be loved so much.I miss feeling the persons arms around me and how good it feels to be called beautiful.I just feel alone and I really dont like it.I mean I laugh and kid all the time but inside I am usually kind of sad.I just feel like nobody will ever love me the way I would love another.It just sucks to feel this doom and it follows me everyday. I know I must sound like a whining baby but it just makes me really feel empty when I have nobody to be with and love.I just wish I had lots of money so I could travel and look for things to occupy my time other than dwelling on love.
I am a real lovable person who feeds off of touching and kissing and making love so it is hard for me to be happy without a special person in my life that is in my arms. I dont know i just feel so godamn sick and tired of this shit I am sick of being lonely when i have lots of guys inviting me out but me not giving them the time of day because most of them just want to have sex.Thqat is so not what im looking for so I save myself the heartache of knowing thats why a guy wants to go out with me. Cause thats how most guys are.I mean I joke all the time of how much I want sex and its true but I also want love and it seems no matter how i am I dont get it. I mean when im with friends like here in the forum or out in real life i joke but i never put those kind of jokes when im talking to a guy I am interested in just cause im trying to see what he wants and nine times out of ten its sex.So its just my shitty luck.I just have one question where did all the real men go...