Fuck It

I have been so hurt and i dont know what to say but fuck it.I really hate being hurt and it really sucks.I actually let someone in my life that i thought i could trust and wham it falls right apart in my face.I really feel so low right now and i just dont want to be anymore.I just am so sick of things going wrong i cant take much more of this fucking joke called my life.I feel so alone and just like a complete nothing.I hate feeling so lost and hurt its like why do i have to keep getting fucked with I mean all i have ever wanted from life is to be happy.I have never been greedy with any part of life and i dont ask for to much ever.I dont bother people cause i know poeople dont like to be bothered by others problems but just once i thought i met a true friend and it has blown up in my face.I am so hurt i cant speak or do anything cause when i do all i do is cry and im so tired of hurting.I am so tired of regrets and feeling like i will never be ok.I have always been a strong person but i feel so weak right now its so not cool.I just dont want any of this anymore i just want to sleep and never wake up.But i know thats not the answer either but it seems like the best way right now.I dont know all i can say is fuck it i just want to be happy and i guess it isnt in the cards for me ever.