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Ok well im very frustrated because I have an assignment that I dont understand.I have emailed my instructor so she hopefully will give me the info I need.I just really get mad at myself when I dont understand something because I dont give myself any slack.I am a big time perfectionist and I just want to do everything the best that I can I hate messing up.I know everyone makes mistakes and im human and all that stuff but I just dont like to be confused on what I am supposed to do.This has been a rough couple of days and I am just so ready to say ok jokes over where is my real life.Anyway I am also very sexually frustrated it comes and goes from time to time and it really hits me hard when it does.It sucks being a very sexual person because a lot of my happiness comes from sharin g my body with someone else.Like I have bitched about forever I do not have that someone and im not about to just go and fuck someone out of the blue.Then I just dont seem to be satisfied because you see I want it more and more when I get a taste of pleasure.So I have to wait till I have a boyfriend and to me its much better that way anyways.Ok well enough of my constant bitching for another night.Good night all and sweet dreams...