Real Friends Love You When Your Crazy

Well, my departure from my best friend did not last very long. We love each other too much to let insanity get in the way. Our reuniting is like starting over again, but better, we love each other that much that being apart was torture for us both. Like someone ripped our hearts in half. There is an ebb and flow to our chatter, and emails, it is our life blood. And he did something today that he always does, he told me where he was going later and what he expected to do.
I know this man almost nine months and he tells me more about where he will be and even calling if things hold him up. And I realized this was the insanity that set me off. When he was really busy he could not let me know. He was tired and didn't have time and when significant changes came along I kind of found out, in a "by the way fashion" and it made me feel , moved out, pushed out. He didn't mean it I know, he would never do that deliberatelly. But instead of the person I knew, I felt he was acting like some one I knew better. The man to abuse me for 26 years.
And so the explaination, that the man I am still married to, only because he is dieing, and what is the point now, for over 26 years kept me locked out. He never told me where he was, what he was doing, what was going on. When to expect him or not. I was always kept waiting until his magnificent appearance.
And then one day, he turned up with HIV. Now if I didn't trust him before, because of his behavior, why on earth would I believe a word he said when he claimed he didn't know how this happened.
The point to all this is that real love is unbreakable because it will turn around and heal itself. It would rather damage itself than hurt the other.