Many Things On My Mind!too Many

The kitchen project, done out of sheer necessity due to my late husband's ruining EVERYTHING, and leaving many many things in question. Just when you get all happy that these changes are going ok, you get slammed in the head by ten things he did and wrecked. It slamms you in the face. See my daughter keeps hinting and waiting for me to miss him and be sad. I am much to angry for that, the lies and betrail go all the way back to the very beginning. I just did not get enough out of this deal EVER!!!! I put 200% in and got back heart break and HIV.
But ripping out the kitchen, and moving and replacing things, well it leaves him out, behind, some where in an alternate universe. Some times I wonder what he thinks of it, and what the other past inhabitants are thinking. But they have been quiet. No noise from the peanut gallery, better know as my other worldly house guests. Though, they bent the pin on the door of the new clock and keep stopping it. Why I thought they wouldn't is beyond me, but when we are fixed that the problem is a simple "it doesn't work", we leave them out. How silly if they were messing with the old clock they will mess with the new one. But that seems to be it!!! Yeah!!!!!
But I find it funny they all want to be in on the decision making, the picking of a range hood micro wave, the picking of tile, and wall paper. Yes, we are riding the house of much contamination, and we are riding the house of a man who maybe should have left a long time ago. He risked infecting them too.

And now while I"m here. A note, about HIV, and cancer cures. I have heard through a grape vine that there is a cure for both cancer and HIV but it is being sat on!!!This came from a connection to the FBI and through a relative. The Government does not want us to have the cure. Well face it, how long did it take to stop small pox and polio? And they stopped it dead in their tracks. Do I think there is a master paln? Only when there is money to be made. Lets face it aren't they thrilled they can sell so much medicine for asthma, emphesyma, diabetes. I have run the road that the doctors have for asthma, all that happend down there is drug dependance , getting worse, involving more medicine, and more damage.
Guess this should have been a seperate blog. But for the last 30 years they have gotten out of the "curing businness" to the maintaining business. Notice how they keep lowing the threshold for hypertension, and blood sugar? But God forbid you go with herbs or other natural remidies, oh they don't work. Yeah right. Check my improved PFT's.(Pulmonary function tests)
And further more, what is up with all these men and women who risked their lives to work in Ground Zero and are now dropping like flies? That another little experiment? Oh yeah they made sure to have them register with their ailmants in the beginning, but later? There should have been a computer network, linking the city doctors who registered these people to doctors in the out lying areas, and everything should have been linked to CDC. And they should have all been in communication. My husband had mercury poisioning and that is what caused me the misery this past year, it went to his brain and caused the dementia, but no one paid attention, even though I asked 10,000 times "ARe you sure this was not from ground zero?" And they said ooohhhh nooooo! Yeah right. Watch it folks, my instinct and 6th sense is right on the money and I often very accurately predict or nail the problem. Imagine we are all just collaterial damage to a sick experiment. Oh you don't think so? Well in the 50's they would get "volunteers" to go watch them explode atomic bombs just to see what would happen. This little cutie, "west Nile like virus" funny it originates with Lyme disease, just a few miles from the Gove't testing facility,"Plum Island". The party line "we have encroached on nature is a crock and a half, we have been encroaching for over 200 years.
Well I hate to spoil a good experiment but I need some sleep so I can kick this virus' ass!!!!